To cheer you up when you're sad. There are different ways to go about this, like: The dad had permit and he wanted to have the baby And he even offer to get merried because I also was afraid of telling my family and I said no with in 3 or 4 days after founding out I abort our baby . Were you touched by this poem? Her due date has passed now. I wish I wouldve bought her plan b or made sure she was taking her birth control but those options are completely out of reach now. I told my baby it may have to be just me and him. During that time, I had to learn a lot about our choices were, and I didnt want to scroll past your comment without sharing some of that knowledge. I had not passed my probation period and I wanted to prove myself, to be as good as I could be. Open Letter Concerning the Killing of "Baby Amanda" On November 3, 2022, National Public Radio (NPR) aired the sounds of the killing of a Child through abortion. purchasing sperm from a donor, via a cryobank im so lost on how to proceed. In my heart i know that baby would have deserved better, but is it ok to feel THat way? For those who may have suffered physical injury due to an abortion, we ask that you contact Operation Rescue at 316-683-6790, or e-mail us your story at info.operationrescue@gmail.com. I know it not quite the same but its just how I feel. I love him he doesnt exactly feel the same, as per the way our relationship has gone these last few Years which caused it to end. But its up to you. Wishing all loving thoughts to you. Not because I want to but because I feel I HAVE to. I feel so empty and outright irresponsible. How are you coping? I just knew it was my girl I prayed for. My daughter will be three next month and I just found out that Im pregnant. Your dad is an alcoholic. I dont know what to do but I see no way out of this. Anyway, Im still mourning and will never forget till the day I die. Ive often wished we met sooner so we could of had a child together. Now it is 3 months later and I always find myself looking at bassinets and baby items. I wanted to be your everything. These letters are an appeal to all who read them to choose life. Its nice to see other ladies have the same emotions and I know when the time is right my baby girl will come back to me (: This might be a bit forward and seem strange of me but I have been through this twice before so if you would like someone to talk to or any support you are welcome to contact me anytime x. I just had mine this afternoon. Hi, Mommy. Ebony Angel B. I have been sleeping with a guy unprotected for a year now last month I got pregnant and I had a miscarriage I never told him because we are not together. "Everything about a later termination is already so incredibly difficult even just picking up the phone to make the appointment. Even if you have others support around you, it can so easily feel like youre going through it alone. I was heavily against murder but I know its for the best. to NOT have to make this decision. Gone by The Head and The Heart plays, and I publicly cry at the lyric Gone are the days when the wind would touch my face, gone are the days when youre the wind. Raising her was not easy on my own but he convinced me to move back so he can have his family. I need to get a surgical abortion on Monday and he cant even decide if he wants to come and support me. I didnt want him to be there for me or my baby out of obligation, I wanted him to be happy. Long story short Im 26 now, engaged to my partner for the last 5 years. My sister just found out she is pregnant and I congratulated her on the phone. I dont know you but it seems to me that if you went through with it, it was 100% the right thing to do. Thank you for sharing your story, and Im sure I can get a counseling session to finally put my mind at ease once I finally have it done. I miss my baby constantly. March 8, 2014 at 4:36 pm. I think about it most days (I would be due on 30th May which coincidentally is my birthday) but I dont dwell on it anymore and do appreciate that for me it just wasnt the right time and I was not ready or prepared to give a child the life it deserves. I made the wrong choice. Would you call that dad-approved? No baby should be murdered by its mother. My room mate and best friend had an abortion two days ago. (Sense my sarcasm, little one.) I think. 4. "I didn't touch you, but I felt you. Im sending love your way, dear one. I havent seen her since after I delivered her, I immediately went whom and my sister arranged everything after she found out what happened , because I needed help so I called her.. I was pursuing an academic career and never had the chance. We sit in silence for a little while, then I ask him to sit next to me, and he does, all the while looking surprised. It resonates and although Im still very sad, makes me feel more peaceful. Dont forget the chips! I waited for him on the couch in our front room, digging my thumb into the ridge of my index finger on both hands. I aborted even though my heart ached and I loved it every day. The film is based on a story called "A Letter from an Aborted Child," which had been used for nearly 10 years by Father Stephen Lesniewski to show women in a time of indecision. I am now 48 and very much regret it and really dont know how to go on, but somehow we must. Im not mad at you anymore. Struggling with the decision I made. We cant afford this baby. I really didn't want to die. I was very confused. When I first find out I was shocked because it was unplanned and I know he doesnt want a baby yet he said he is not ready and me either but deep down I dont want to do this at all and i wanna see that cute little face:(( We agreed to do abortion. I go into a patient room for questions and Im told your dad can join me later for the mini-counseling session. I want the baby, and he says not yet. Dont worry though youre not pregnant!. I understand you completely I found out I was pregnant pretty early ( 2-3 weeks ) decided I was going to go through with the pregnancy after me & my boyfriend relationship changes drastically he started to become emotionally and mentally abuse. Its so irresponsible of me i know, but i dont want him to feel like Im trying to use this new baby as a way to rekindle our relationship that in reality was not that good. Ive always wanted to be a mom, and already, I feel like I know you and yet I cant have you. I just turned 21,everyone wants me to keep the baby and I want to be a mom but I dont at the same time. I found out I was pregnant today and through the tears, I scheduled the appointment. Im doing my final major project in my fashion degree and want my final collection to be inspired by my experience. My and my husband have been diagnosed with infertility. "Please pray for this woman to continue to stand firm in her choice to give life to her unborn baby," the pro-life organization wrote. Im broken over this. Just my thoughts ?? I wish I had made the even more difficult decision and been able to hold him and tell him how much I love him. Im 8-9 weeks pregnant, i have not told him since we are not together although we still engage in sex. I know one day when everything is settled down and fine she/he will come again and Ill be more prepared. My baby fever was at an all time high I was even looking at baby clothes. You can do more than you think you can. Just a few days before my 22nd birthday. Every day I feel like a monster. My boyfriend was with me when I took the test. And wham, I unexpectedly end up pregnant, at 41. Financially we are already tight. Im now 11 weeks and as soon as I found out I was pregnant he has gone back to abusing alcohol. is! I was 6 weeks when I went for an ultrasound .. and all I saw was a small blob that I referred to as my nugget. It helps to know I am not alone so thank you. I really commend you Shawn. We talk about how we could make it work, but it just doesnt make sense. We then move to a different room and wait for the doctor. My boyfriend and I have only been dating a few months. My apt is tomo And I dont want to go. She was already the mom of a young girl and in an abusive relationship. Now she feels she let her self and everyone else down. I was very sad.! The law has no exception to allow an abortion to save the life of . Once my ears have developed properly, At times I couldnt walk, couldnt eat, loss 9 pounds in one week, shortness of breath and felt like I was having a heart attack. Unfortunately my health started to take a turn for the worse. Hi, my story is very quite similar to yours. I want to be able to call you "Mom," and hear you say I'm yours. Carroll's mom was about the same age as . I too feel like I will regret it if I do this, I wish I could have kept you, but I know our lives wouldnt have been what you deserve. So afraid. Maybe they never will. Your story sounds exactly like my own. I had an abortion 6 years ago at 41 years old and was the one and only time to have a child I always wanted. My boyfriend stayed with me but after a while he started blaming me and our relationship change . I stood up, pants around my ankles, and lost my footing, grasping onto the shelf that held toilet paper and Febreze. My husband is pretty headstrong about me aborting.. my heart is broken. I found out I was pregnant on September 23rd, 2 weeks before my 21st birthday. I would give anything to hold him. Massachusetts Democrat told to resign after abortion remarks leave parents irate. I am 31 and have a 4 year old and an 8 year old step daughter. When I had my daughter, he unfortunately couldnt be there and I raised her on my own until she was about 6 years old. Always imagine what he or she will look like. I am going through the same exact thing you are. No baby should be murdered by its mother. I have searching for someone going through what Im going through but I have yet to find it. Eventually with some deep talks from my family I booked an appointment and decided it was best not to have the baby I had to have a surgical abortion at 16 weeks . An Honest Letter About Abortion. I know that deep down hes right but its tearing me apart. Reading this story and the comments gave me some of the comfort I needed. Wish I could turn back time. Then after that we took a break and he broke up with me on the day I got abortion and said that hes moved to a different state and didnt think he wanted to come back home. The emotions you displayed in this article made me cry because it is exactly how I feel. I love this man but i dont want a baby now and i feel the worst human being in this world for thinking that way. My partner abandoned me and I had no money. She has told me she regrets her choice to abort the fetus, she has said that many times now. Its been 7 years since my abortion, and I miss her. She is planning to keep the baby because she doesnt think she could handle the depression that would follow an abortion. She wrote this piece to destigmatize abortion and to offer a story of strength and hope to women and men alike. I know it was the right decision but I regret every moment of it even to this day. I literally cry every moment I think of aborting it. This hurts me down to my soul. Days away from her second abortion, she wrote that getting the abortion is the "right decision for myself, my daughter, and this child." A letter from an unborn baby: fHi mom!, how are you?, I am doing just fine thanks. Im working on it though. I always believed that I will meet my angel one day. The abortion debate has been going on for ages. I have a three year old. I work a half day, then your dad picks me up and we drive to Planned Parenthood. If anyone has any advice, please send it my way. Please please please pray for us so that my darling would come back to me. I hate that Im stuck with making this decision. It would be my second but he has children from a previous marriage. I will be 37 years old and have had previous abortions but after this miscarriage (I never had one before), fear that I will never conceive again came across me. Know the Issues. I am sad you were sad. For the first time in my life. [https://www.coparents.com/sperm-donors/how-to-find-a-free-sperm-donor-online.php]. He wants me to get an abortion, but I just dont think I can do it. I found out Im 6 weeks pregnant last week. Before the devil knew me, God knew me, he created everything. I know thats the right decision but I cant stop crying or thinking about baby . And I was supposedly either unable to conceive or it would be extremely difficult. I always imagine what he or she would have looked like and I feel I failed my child. I want my baby so much but my family are pushing for a termination as I should be having a child when the timing is right. As a minor in highschool who lives with her boyfriend (of 2 years), I had to have a termination back in September after finding out I was pregnant days before the dads birthday (Aug. 28). We want to expand our family but we werent expecting to do it so soon. Three years later, I look back on that day as the most difficult, important, unforgettable, and un-regrettable moment of my life. I m a thai women but I moved to England to live with my husband , he is 34 years old and weve been together nearly 3 years. Time went on and as I struggled with my decision he eventually came around. My name is John, and. Im ready,but am I really ready? Sending love your way. and I have no clue what to do. No baby should be murdered by its mother. As opposed to most elective . I was a late-in-life baby, the fourth child born when my mom was 42 in 1959. Did you end up keeping your baby ? Im at the point where leaving him is the only option because each day he tells me to get an abortion in person, texts, etc. She comes to me in my dreams at least once a week. For My Mommy (the cry of an unborn child) his mom knew, she had taken me to my appointment. Im already a mom and I love my daughter more then anything. The way you wrote it felt so close to home for me and i just wanted to say thank-you, thank-you, thank-you. However I was so sick I could barely make it to class and I was on the verge of going to the hospital for dehydration. You will always be part of my heart, and I know that if someday I see two pink lines again, it will be you coming back to me. I feel that too I was once pregnant while I was doing matric 2016 I was confused and lonely because I did not know what to do by that time but I found myself lost then I decided to do abortion sometimes it hunt me to a point where I cant think straight but I had to forgive myself for that because I did the right choice for myself. I have a lovely 5 year old sweets, a better partner that would totally support me should this happen again..nope. When God made me, He gave me a soul Im sad, but dont regret it. You are making the best decision for yourself at this point in time , I feel like I can relate and that give me a lil strength. or I have to go through a second one and I dont know what to do. I dont want to go through an abortion again. Im 21, and I was 7 weeks pregnant last week but decided to terminate, after much deliberation. I regret my decision every day. In the last twenty minutes of my lunch break, I walked to Walgreens and bought the test thinking the employees must assume Im really irresponsible (I guess I was?). Maybe you're worried about money or becoming a mother or just getting through tomorrow. If it makes you feel any better, abortion is highly unlikely to affect your future fertility equally though Im missing my baby a lot. He doesnt want to start over and says that we are too old. Im so confused and torn between getting an abortion or keeping the baby. When I told him I was pregnant the first thing he said is lets get a chicken sandwhich. Ive never thought Id be in this position and feel so weak and lost. I didnt go through with the abortion, I couldnt once seeing my baby but ever since deciding to keep my baby Im still. All I could say was 'I'm sorry, I'm sorry, baby, I'm sorry.' As a mother, you never, ever, ever forget. Although your husband is not supportive now, he no doubt will grow to love your little child. Oh Mommy please, just give me a chance Its killing me and Im crying every night. Starving, I told him. Its so unfair that guys help in making the baby. My first pregnancy ended the relationship because I betrayed him, although he would never step down from his responsibilities , and thats how he made me feel. I now have learnt something new about myself i will absolutely love to be a mother one day. I feel like shit because I was raised that this was wrong. All the what-ifs led me to deciding that the best decision for me would be to terminate. She made the choice within a day, and now she is so upset and emotional and traumatised. Even with his support, the support of my mother, sister, and friends.. I already felt so attached. Help us build the most popular collection of contemporary poetry on the internet! These letters are an appeal to all who read them to choose life. Physically or health wise and its not suppose to be this way. I was worried I would have preeclampsia again, which could put baby and me in danger. I feel that it was indeed the best decision for me but Im so emotionally torn that i feel horrible for doing it i was also about 5 weeks . I dont want to lose you. I feel my baby moving around and he doesnt understand what Im going through. I agree about age being just a number but my husband is 50 and not interested in doing this again. Be strong for me hold on to me Letter from a Woman Who Had an Abortion. I wanted to give her grandchildren but that couldnt be my only reason for keeping the baby. Those options may be easier, less expensive, and more in reach than you think. no one is on my side. I promise that the next time I see that little blue plus, the next time you are in the same reality as me, I will be ready for you. I always thought she would come back to me somehow but only in my sleeping dreams and waking thoughts. A local democratic official in Framingham, Massachusetts is under fire for comments made about babies born with . Your baby will always be with you, even if your boyfriend isnt. That, and I literally broke up with him two days prior. This apparently isnt convincing enough, and he asks if Ive taken any more havent I considered it could be a false positive? People will yawn when they are bored of you. I am curious as wel. Get the Poem of the Day delivered right to your phone! Also it will definitely be detrimental to my relationship with my husband. June 1, 2021 2:30 PM EDT. It was my first pregnancy, my husband is deployed, and I just happened to be going through this process physically alone (minus a couple friends there for support). I found out I was pregnant October 1st. And I havent heard from him since. It wasnt the right time and the best way to move forward is by working to build a life in which you can raise a child in the future. Dont panic, I thought. Letter to My Child - Abortion Memorial What is the Abortion Memorial? When I started getting very nauseous all the time my Mom said I was definitely pregnant and we went to the gynecologist who gave me an ultrasound and said I was pregnant. And I don't need a room filled with toys. I begged mi amor to reconsider, I proposed to her 3 days before she had the abortion. God is never bored of you. He is the reason why I feel so motivated now, and although its not easy I wouldnt trade him for anything in the world. I need advice from someone, anyone. I wish this decision wasnt so hard. We argued and I prayed on it. My grief has been unbearable the past 5 days since I had the abortion. Hi Sarah, Ive just had a baby (two weeks ago) at 40, I do feel age is but a number. I want to help the conversation start on a different platform and educate. I had a late term surgical abortion, against my will. Im so scared though, because Im no longer with my boyfriend I wont get to meet that baby anymore, if it happens it will be with someone else, most likely. We just dont know what we actually want, since we decided to not have children. It would have killed me alive to have given birth to those children and given them a life they did not deserve. I know the abortion has made me realise how much of an amazing mum I am going to be but I am also so desperate to be a mummy and the loss in my gut cant be put into words. There was also this paranoia about who the dad was. I feel so torn apart. I was accepted into a Masters program the day before. Im so confused. Ill always be one. Im so torn and feel so alone. I lost my baby in August. I was literally petrified and afraid that no matter what I tried to do, what if I couldnt get it all in order before my baby got here? I instantly thought about abortion and although I was afraid Id regret it I went ahead and scheduled the appointment. I had to. But I already feel connected and cry so hard every time I think of letting it go. Im only 21 and Im not financially free. My Unborn Love By And just as I had for months prior, I did so with ease, telling myself, What another waste of $15. See, my boobs hurt and were swollen; I was tired; I was hungry. And to be honest, your dad and I werent using protection. Im mad as hell (still) that we took steps responsible steps steps that have to be repeated! But I cant help but feel a deep sense of loss and regret over ending the pregnancy. Our hearts held firm. I have images that its the same as trying to kill one of my current children. I loved you, my first, my only.. If you do not live with your parents, but you live with a grandparent, or an adult aunt or uncle, the adult relative you live with may be told in place of your parents. Your state requires that one of your parents be told of your decision 48 hours before your abortion. You deserve the acceptance and tolerance of a choice that is yours and yours only. I cry also. A group of doctors and conservative medical groups is suing to overturn the FDA's approval of mifepristone and a federal judge could rule to cut off . Constant regret and pain . God chose YOU to be my mommy, I was able to get another teaching job back in our home state, and have been teaching for years. I too had an abortion a couple of days ago 1/10/20. I just wanted to say thank-you for sharing your story. Your dad talks about how hes an alcoholic, out-of-work barista. It uses medicine or surgery to remove the embryo or fetus and placenta from the uterus. I just recently started a new job and I want to progress. Im 9 weeks pregnant. Oh mommy, I can't go on anymore help me 17 years have gone by since you made that fateful decision. I'll be able to hear the sound of your voice. I was rattled with anxiety and guilt and overwhelmed. In a recent post on the Reddit forum TwoXChromosomes, an anonymous user shared her feelings about her upcoming abortion: Little Thing: I can feel you in there. Praying for all of you and I know now every situation is so different. I had an abortion past the point of having the pill so had to have the surgery, It was the most painful time of my life physically and emotionally and I never expected it would continue to haunt me. All the best. .. thank you so much for this. Pro . When I found out I was pregnant, was overcome with fear. I did an abortion 10 years ago and never disclosed to my them boyfriend who is now my husband. As a pro-life advocate, I've written and submitted many articles pertaining to abortion to our local newspaper. I felt you crying when you went to the doctor. Our family was complete. He doesnt know the end result, nor do I feel that he deserves to. I look for my child for twenty years but I was never able to get pregnant again . I dont understand how someone who has children already, can be so selfish and cold hearted. It will be 8 years since my abortion in July and I still think about it every day. Featured Shared Story I loved this poem so much, it made me cry. This brought me to tears. Im in the same situation except with two different dads. I had gone off my birth control a year prior and I didnt get my period for six months; then once I did, they were not predictable: they always came, but my cycle wasnt steady. a desire to meet its mother; Reactions to this song have been divided. Please give me some advice Im so lost right now. Anger boils in me now and again over it. SUBSCRIBE: $1 for 3 months. I am totally against abortion. Hesitantly I got the pill, I was just a day before 10 weeks, I held my baby and cried until I couldnt. Im playing the song you listened to sobbing. When I first found out I initially was a bit upset but over a few days I grew very attached. Now Im thinking an abortion is my only option, I kicked him out last night. Can I ask what you ended up doing? God bless you and your family. My parents would have had to raise the child on the other side of the country and I knew I wouldnt have been able to bear being away from it. I just had to message to empathise that this is not an easy decision and I understand the turmoil you are likely going through right now. The dad and I had talked about having another child after 3.5 yrs. I love him so much it hurts I cant imagine my life without him, he filled a hole I didnt know I had. I dont know what to do at all. I hope you are healing well and have found happiness in other areas of life, until you and your unborn baby see each other again. From a mother's letter to her aborted child: "It's been a decade and still my blood runs cold and I catch my breath whenever I hear the word " abortion." Space there is an emptiness inside of me that can never be filled, a chill that has never quite been warned, a grief that will Continue reading "A Mother's Letter to Her Aborted Baby" If anything more of their fault because they shoot the load but were the ones that have to suffer through the pain. Davis, a mother of three, is fundraising online to cover the cost of traveling out of state to get an abortion. How difficult this truly I was in a a similar position. My daughter was only 800g when she was born, stayed in NICU for 3 month. I take his hand in mine and say, Everything thats happened the past few weeks doesnt matter anymore. The worse I got the more my boyfriend managed to show up and take care of me. I would give anything to have my baby back. April S., New Jersey. Just like our loved ones that preceded us. He walks into the front room while I am mid-stand, so thats how I greet him. Im 11 weeks pregnant and Ive been dating a man for six months, I recently found out he is married but trying to get a divorce now, and hes been sleeping with her even when he knew I was pregnant. He estimates that over 500 babies have been saved because of his efforts in utilizing the aforementioned piece. I know God and His angels will help. Ruffalo opened up about his own mother's experience with having an abortion . Hi. I opted for the surgical procedure because I was told it would be the quickest. Its so hard. Im struggling with this decision. 36 years old and its looking like I wont get another chance. And I cry every single day. I got an abortion 6 days ago. I cried every day leading up to me making a decision, and I set the appointment for the very next day after I decided so that I would not have much time to change my mind. It would have been too early to know the sex for sure but when I think of her I feel her and I know she was my baby girl your not alone, whatever you feel, your not alone. And Im scared because Ive read what an abortion can do or affect my fertility. I took the pill at 6 weeks. I felt empty after too, 10 years later and I still have regret. But I dont regret it either. The afternoon I found out I was pregnant with you was just like any other day waiting for my period: I was late. I decide abortion at week 6. It hurts the relationship with my husband, and we are about to be separated as we cannot communicate anymore. I was shocked. This was with the same toxic individual that I got pregnant the first time with . My biggest fear is not be Abel to give my girl a sibling I will be 39 in a couple of days so . I wish I had advice or something magical to say to make everything all betterI dont. Its what he wants. I am so heartbroken.