Shed get so excited when shes hear my voice, and shes lick my finger, I didnt think hamsters could care about a human so much. I have 3 cats and one of the other cats was sick during last week and I gave him specilly whatever he likes to encouraged him to eat. I Love Him soo much. I should have insisted they remain closed and theyd have to be out or in regardless of whether it was against their intentions. What I did not know was that Bella was behind me trying to jump into the car at that very instant. You didnt deserve to die like that, you were my moms companion during her cancer and now with all her after effects. I was not allowed to go inside due to Covid. So if you have dogs, even if they have lived with other pets, please keep your new pet separated at all times during feedings. I took a couple of pics of her which is not unusual as I have over 1,000! I encourage you to share your experience below. I actually didnt want her at my place because of the responsibility. Dreaming that this never happened and that wed still be together in 15-20 years. I wasnt sure why that was happening but I got her some fresh water and cleaned up her feet. It died in a few seconds but she cried for days, it was horrible. She suffered because of me. No you didnt love him. I just miss my baby. Hell be fine, we assured ourselves. So, I went to the laundry room (which is right outside my bedroom . She was run over by one of the neighbors that revs their car faster than he should and I had heard it from my house. Healing after you had to put your pet down often requires forgiving yourself. You were annoying little Chihuahua but you were only 8 You had so much more love and life to give!!! My poor 7yr old daughter found her best friend dead. Love at first site. But also, the sitter said she was still warm when they found her so it was likely that morning and not during the night. 00:53. On Monday Single Dot refused food but quite normal but evening he was not okay. Muffin is on two kinds of medication for her heart and I think I took on too big of walks during the day. He always wanted affection of us over other fellow cats, therefore alwys he spent the time with us. We couldnt get him into his normal kennels, and so had to book him in to a new one it had been recommended by another kennel and great reviews. He immediately turned to run back to me, our eyes connected just before he got slammed by the bus. My 7 month kitten died because of me. I can't believe it hours later. She was such a good cat and theres an empty space in my heart without her. Theres a rabbit warren there so big you can see it on Google Earth. One day at a time. i ###$ him up pretty bad. If youre dealing with imagined guilt because of your pets death, remember that sometimes illness or disease overcomes our dogs, cats, and other beloved petsand theres nothing we can do. Our other cat (the one whose died) is more of an outdoor cat and very self reliant with a strong hunter instinct. But this might be a good read for you.. http://www.aplacetolovedogs.com/2010/06/why-do-dogs-leave-earth-first-a-child-answers/1486596831/. Since last two three days he would stair at the the door, try to go out alone and taking that in mind I thought of taking him outside for 5 mins. Shortly after she arrived, I came down with Covid. After I basically prepared her casket. . Lameness. I feel desesperate. The woman told me to call by 1pm if I had not heard from them. I had a basket full of clean clothes that had been sitting crumpled up for a couple days. She was also terrified of the ground and I hadnt taught her enough to survive alone. He must be hating me for giving him such death. I am trying to get through this feeling so bad for him in his final hours when nobody was around and I dont know what to do with that haunting thought. I feel both at the same time. The officer tried pulling the seat.. We made a 7 hour round trip drive to pick him up. He didn't say anything, but I think he knew. What you did was incredibly wrong but you can at least try and make it better by helping yourself and then going and helping other animals. The Animal Legal Defense Fund is a 501(c)(3) nonprofit organization. I left and walked home. We found out she was about 14 years old, had no teeth, was blind in the other eye as well, and only weighed about 3lbs. Bella's having it pretty sweet right now. After the recording I removed . We waited in all day for the phone call. I hate myself, and Im saying all this here because otherwise it might fall out of my mouth in front of my wife and I CANNOT do that because shes making her peace with it in her own way and the food thing hasnt come to mind for her. I left to Zumba class to get distracted and get support didnt make it back home until the next day she was weak so immeditly I gave her Pedialyte she seem weak gave her amoxicillin then I decided to give her some wet food she didnt want to eat but I figured she need it food for her immuy system to fight her infection i forced fed her 2 syringes of wet dog food right away she went weak i rushed to the vet was there in 8 min right away the vet started working on her 15 min later she died the Vet told me that it was most likely she died because of me force feeding her that it went to her lungs. We all really just got use to Gwen and she seemed to like us. I feel horrible. He fell down or he jumped I dont remember correctly. 1 Answer. She was 13.5 years old and just died on Wednesday of septis which was caused by gum disease, an abcess on her gum due to a cracked tooth. Get those feelings out, express them any way you can. I miss you . She follows me everywhere and if I'm in bed, she will meow obnoxiously until she can snuggle up on top of or around me. 3.1K. I had to kill my cat. I feel so sick with grief and that its my fault my cat died. I hated to leave her in such an anxiety provoking situation but this was abnormal for her so I drove away and felt confident Id have an answer at 1. Were going to take a trip out of town, you and mama and me. His precious little body had succumbed to the cold. They put her in an incubator. Accidentally killed my dog!! My mother in law had kept our son and 6 month old Pomeranian, Bella for us. He said shes going love. Healing after your pets death involves accepting that you wish you wouldve done things differently and talking this through with your family, friends, or loved ones. None of it would have happened if the vet was not so complacent and careless. A mutually supportive community where deeply emotional things you can't tell people you know can be told. I thought if this was hypoglycemia the sugar would help. The involuntary movements were violent, she vocalized in a way ive never heard that sounded like complete pain. A Vetoryl overdose can cause a dog to become lethargic, vomit, and seizure. I just kept planning these grand things for her future. You should feel bad. I killed my beloved pup by putting Bravecto anti flea and tick drops on him. We walked one night that first week he was gone..just one. She knew it meant a trip to the vet. Last weekend my four-year-old daughter accidentally squeezed her pet rat to death. The vet says its not my fault and she has underlying issues. My axolotl (type of salamander) died earlier today and it was my fault. Her eyes were bleeding and she was gasping for air. Additionally, certain dogs are genetically hypersensitive to the medication. By the time Pronto died, old Babs, the third cat, didnt do much more than sleep so Duffy had no cat to rely on. I have flashbacks of it all and cannot eat or sleep. So when they tried pulling the seat it suffocated my baby and he didnt make it. Reddit and its partners use cookies and similar technologies to provide you with a better experience. I found her decomposing. (Yuma az degree is 110.) This book will help you understand why your feelings are so overwhelming, and help you cope with the guilt you feel about your pet's death. He loved catnip and his scratching post. I wont go into details, but it was very traumatic, a moment in time that will likely haunt me for the rest of time. We rushed to the hospitals but they were closed. We had one call as an update, saying that Lolly was running around and eating and seemed okay, but the operation had been delayed because an emergency case had come in. When we met I had 3 dogs, all rescues. Yesterday he died and i feel very guilty because i have to admit that i didnt bother vaccinating him which was my primary duty with everything going in my daily life i meglected it. If only I had been in the basement, I would have heard her squealing for me to help her. I thanked her for her life. Now, Im looking back on everything and it has dawned on me that, for some reason or another, she probably was dehydrated because she couldnt drink after I put the e collar on her. If I feel like this, then I can only imagine how people feel when children are involved. Florio waited for me to come down and pick him up from where he was sleeping by mom and died in my arms an hour later. He was very energetic. You want him to trust you, you have to trust him. Losing a friend sucks. I finally got her when people helped get the pitbull off she died within minutes. And while my friend suffers a lonely and agonizing death due to my negligence, Im relaxing inside, too lazy to care. i have friends but our relationships arent strong. Whether it's long-standing baggage, happy thoughts, or recent trauma, posting it here may provide some relief. We were surrounded in blood, tears, urine, feces, and saliva. I became frightened for myself and felt agony for her suffering. My hamster was missing for 24 hours Usually when she gets free, she always comes back a few hours later. Maybe it would help to talk to your parents about it, ask them how they feel about the incident? I believe in my heart that Felix would still be here had I reacted faster. In the summer months, slugs come out and bait is used to kill them. It was anaccident, and you would have done things differently if you had know what would happen. Coping with Guilt. You dont grasp the power your words have. See the unfiltered opinions of strangers. What if we picked him up a day early? His head was between two bars. No, in reality, a dog owner should not be suing a veterinarian if they think Cerenia has been the cause of their pet's death. Its a fucked up confession but what therapist treats their patient by telling them how awfully they are? The vet recommended she stay overnight to be monitored after receiving insulin with the hope that would improve her unsteadiness. The worst part is I didnt know it was still that serious, I didnt think she was in danger of dying anymore. You have actually committed a crime. I lost my talking bird just 3 days ago and i blame myself for her death. Not helpful. She does it a lot at night but I'm so scared of falling asleep and suffocating her by mistake because I moved in my sleep. I held her she made barely any sounds. We'll listen, and if you want, we'll talk. We treated him twice through the vet and sometimes with home remedies and sometime he recovered after one or two days of getting sick. The anger, guilt and sadness feels like it will consume me at times. If you did not deliberately set out to harm your pet, then you have nothing to feel guilty about. I knew not to starve rabbits before surgery, but I had stupidly assumed that as long as she had plenty to eat on the day itself she would be fine. I have 3 adult dogs and 2 pups , all yorkshires. Kion's cool with it, though. Rest In Peace my perfect Angel. Now I often ponder his final moments. She had done well with this. I wish. I felt like I drove over a small hump and I stopped and got out to see what it was. After a few days, my wife suggested we take a walk around the neighborhood and call for him, an old tactic we would try that would usually result in him showing up in the next couple of days. Dealing with guilt when you caused your pets deathisnt just about grieving; its about cherishing the best parts of your life with your dog or cat. Monday night could not find him in the home or garden. I'll never forget that. [AMZN] Jeff Bezos Joined 15/09/2018 Posts 80,103 06:24 PM 25/06/2019 All of a sudden he had another episode last night, what would happen is his front legs would go stiff straight and it spasm and then he would pant like crazy. Whether your guilt is real or imagined, know that it is a normal grief reaction. I love reading these comments and having everyone ignore a major thing you brought up; you have anger issues. I loaded her in the carrier and had to drop her off. We dropped him off on the Monday and were due to collect him on the Friday morning. So a couple of days ago, I put an e collar on her to prevent her from digging at it. I knew this was a very bad sign. I even considered rehoming her several times over because of the guilt and neglect. I feel sick when I think about it and how she passed in my husbands arms. I hadnt this time. Everyone is telling me not to blame myself, that it was an accident. I never saw her with that ununsteadiness, rapid breathing, or weakness. Answer (1 of 39): She always likes to bite my slippers. They looked him over and said he was so sickly and he looked like death warmed over. In 1977 Maryann Gray was a 22-year-old college graduate with her whole life ahead of her, when a little boy darted out in front of her car. She did eat a reasonable amount before we left the house, and some in the car on the way there. A few years ago we had adopted a kitten named Ryuu. Nov 2, 2013 at 21:57. They had put him in a black garbage bag out in their driveway. The shame and guilt are overwhelming. We took her to the vet who said her lymph node was enlarged and look liked it had spread . Sadly at 5pm Single Dot left me infront of me. After some moments she appeared more lucid. Collapsed, hyperventilating, tongue hanging out of her mouth, but with eyes open. When I was younger my dog had gotten out without me knowing and followed me to a friends house. The worst part of all of this is that he was just across the street, literally less than 100 feet from his home when he died. But I on the other hand should have known that it wasnt safe to leave that window open. He yells cryies imediatelly and I realise my mistake. I spent months searching for the one that felt like ours and finally found him right before Christmas. Occurred on February 14, 2023 / Canada: "I came into my kitchen and found my dog with his head stuck in his treat box. I am so sorry I didnt bring him in. I couldnt bear to witness this. 4. Short answer: cover your entire hand in a light coating of peanut butter and offer it up to your dog. My heart is with all of you. I needed to get a creep away he kept coming to my house and throwing rocks at window or banging on the door, my neighbors complained too. The day before yesterday, I noticed she was stepping in her water and getting in the litter box. Most often, we believe we had more control over the situation than we actually did, and this is the cause of our guilt. My husband was driving across our land with Oso running ahead like usual. 2 days ago I thought I had a healthy 5 year old beagle mix named Pima. I keep trying to find every excuse in the world for what I found but, I know she died because of my neglect. So many regrets, and so many opportunities to change the outcome. I am fixing to tell you my guilt while I am crying and hating on myself right now. She had a long day and I felt she probably needed rest. It seemed far fetch but a skunk was living under my home at the time. That was over 12 years ago, and I still feel guilty! Or watched 1 you tune video I could have made simple adjustments to spare her life or extend it.Poor baby. The worst part ..yes there is a worse part. I was selfish and kept leaving it up to myself to get it right. i cant stop crying. out of all my dogs , he was my favorite. Then she began to growl and puff out and fight the bed. The second one we found, I accidentally attacked my buddy's wolf, and his wolf raped my 2nd one and I was sad, I then killed his and he "EXECUTING SADFACE.EXE" and we looked for a while while he tried to suicide IG multiple times, he then went to go play left 4 dead 2 :[R.I.P How could I put my sweet baby in harms way!? But I'm the one that did it and the guilt is tremendous. Grieving the loss of a pet is often as painful as mourning a close friend or relative. A mutually supportive community where deeply emotional things you can't tell people you know can be told. The topics discussed include practical suggestions for grieving, ideas for remembering and memorializing ones pet, understanding the many emotions experienced after the death of a pet, understanding why grief for pets is unique, pet funerals and burial or cremation, celebrating and remembering the life of ones pet, coping with feelings about euthanasia (and guilt about putting an animal to sleep), helping children understand the death of their pet, and things to keep in mind before getting another pet. My cat died a few months ago from kidney failure. I will miss her for a long long time and this will be hard for me to live with. I continued with rescue breathing. They also said that even we had got him in earlier it wouldnt have made any difference because there was an almost one hundred percent chance he would die during surgery. We held each other. If the person lives in the same county as you, then you will sue in your county court. I am not excusing the behaviour and we certainly have never done this with our current dog, but I miss him so much. Im here because last week my little 6 lb baby Zoey went out in the yard to do her potty before bed like always my husband is usually here and he goes out with both dogs but this time it was me i turned all the lights on and watched both dogs go out and everything seemed fine 10-15 minutes later i go looking for her i looked everywhere house rest of the yard and then i seen her in the pool drowned i immediately jump in to get her and laid her down and tried to give her cpr it didnt work i was in a deep shock and Im still so devastated i cant stop blaming myself on top of missing her so much weve had her for 14 years after the kids were gone and she was our baby so loyal and sweet she was a big part of our lives for so long.i dont know how i will ever get over the blame. I could have tried to push his head out harder. TikTok video from Madison Shewbooks (@madisonshewbrookssss): "You killed him over something he didn't do. She seemed to have some level of coming to when I would resume cpr. Looking into this, its linked to diet, exercise and stress. You may think its stupid to not play an entire game if a charcter dies but i like to get into the story of single player games and im not interested in playing some cliche ridden game where the dog dies. I have a gut-wrenching feeling inside with so much regret from these last 2 weeks or so, even though I think I did good before all of this. Remember, however, that each dog is unique, and some dog owners may experience adverse reactions to fish oil supplements. ). If youre struggling with real guilt, remember that you hadreasonsfor doing what you did. Well, I got a big awaking from my vet he told me hes your dog now and lets treat him and get him betterand I brought him home. I felt sick as I saw her run off. Thats what I did , but instead of going to their dog houses both males stay paralised which I now understand they mustve been scared . She was by my side the whole time. The vet called late afternoon. I explained that she is a nervous cat and had concerns about putting that added stress on her. I miss you so much. Coming here isnt going to do anything, go talk to a therapist. It was the 2 bars attached to it. I wish I could get justice for Buttercup and for myself. I thought when she was 10 to take her for an check up for general health but didnt. If youre struggling with grief and guilty feelings because of the circumstances surrounding your dog or cats death, readLetting Go of an Animal You Love: 75 Ways to Survive Pet Loss. He had no cuts, no blood, nothing. I was crying, exhausted, my adrenaline teetering. The dog was nowhere to be seen and I thought she had gone to the back yard to where my husband was. Bringing hope & helping you find Freedom & Courage. Press J to jump to the feed. @JoshDM I wouldn't know whether to expect a lick or a bite. Surely hed still be alive if I hadnt. She was very warm which led me to believe this didnt just happen. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. Btw- you are a murderer. My sweet, sweet baby. I wish I could go back in time. He even rebelled when I put it on him!! I miss my beautiful girl. He was found by a landscaper, curled up under a bush, already gone. He was perfect! Itll help you deal with guilt when you caused your pets death. You have probably never heard of this phenomenon because people rarely talk about the situation. He will come home when hes ready, like he always does. Im spending more times with my other two cats while comforting them. As I buried my face in his thick, furry . I ordered a 2010 special order kennel and bought a igloo home for him, enclosed part of it to cover his home as well. Our poor girl was crawling out from under our vehicle and we immediately took her to the vet hospital. It had been me who suggested going for a walk. A 32-year-old man in Turkey was reportedly shot and killed by his own dog after the canine stepped on the trigger of a shotgun and it fired at him. Shes always crazing to come indoors after short spells outside. I walked with him to the barn area also on occasions. It was the first day having him on the road and of course, he was crying, scared. Identify imagined guiltabout theloss of your dog or cat. We didnt want any more pain for her so we let her go . The topics discussed include practical . Were going to an English county that only we know, to a hill only we know, and well say goodbye one last time and let you go. I found this quite concerning as her glucose level and hypertension were the 2 most pressing issues that we were aware of. I wanted to end her suffering. I did a similar thing when I was learning to drive. We thanked her and her team for doing their best for our girl. I told her I loved her. I know it's been a long time but I don't think I ever accepted the loss, and I still blame myself and our carelessness. I took him to 3 different vets in our area that could not figure what was wrong with him. Im here because of the loss of our 8 year old family German shepherd. The most important thing to remember is that you did NOT purposely cause your pets death. I am haunted by it. I gave authorisation for her to be put to sleep. I make myself confortable watching them and I notice something kinda annoying. It wasnt the first time we brought a new animal into the house, and my wife and I both knew Tiny would be grouchy about it. I really loved him, but I feel like I became so selfish amidst the stress in my life. Sue August 30, 2022 at 11:03 am . Instead of dying cold and alone. I wouldn't move him and stayed in the car with him. These drugs are used to treat pain, inflammation, and fever in people. Mid-evening the other vet called. I could have saved him. I put him in a box and took him home. Another guilt i didnt let him sleep with me in my bed instead i made his bed near me and the next morning at 4:30am i heard him make sound i checked and he took his last breath i cried till 8am then finally burried him it was the most painful moment of my life he was stiff cold my baby i dont know anything but i miss him i love him and i regret what i did.